Thursday, November 5, 2009


Here are the rules:

Use only one word, pass along to six favorite bloggers, and tell 'em you did so.

1. Where is your cell phone? floor

2. Your hair? Brown

5. Your favorite food? Cheese

6. Your dream last night? foggy

7. Your favorite drink? punch

8. Your dream/goal? Difference

9. What room are you in? Living

10. Your hobby? reading (latest)

11. Your fear? Self-anger

12. Where do you want to be in six years? mommy

13. Where were you last night? Gym

14. Something that you aren't? mad

15. Muffins? blueberry

16. Wish list item? ipod

17. Where did you grow up? college (maturity) Iowa (age)

18. Last thing you did? toenails.

19. What are you wearing? jeans

20. Your TV? active

21. Your pets? undiscovered

22. Friends? wonderful

23. Your life? blessed

24. Your mood? hopeful

25. Missing someone? Grandma

26. Vehicle? Kirby

27. Something you're not wearing? shoes

28. Your favorite store? Borders

29. Your favorite color? Pink

30. When was the last time you laughed? lunch

31. Last time you cried? weekend

32. Your best friend? Bryan

33. One place that I could go over and over? Grandma's

34. One person who emails you regularly? Jamie

35. Favorite place to eat? Roadhouse

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Hopes went up, and then hopes came down... QUICKLY

I will probably make some people mad by the words that are about to be written. I have a tendency to get my hopes up about lots of things, especially when it's a date with Bryan that consists of going somewhere other than the movies. So last Friday we went to the Oklahoma State fair. How to describe the fair, hmm... searching for words... well sorry but, 'let down' is all I can say. The mayor recently made a plan to spend lots of money to fix up OKC some more including the state fair grounds, and if that means making it not so much of a sad event for me, then I'm all for the money being spent.
NOT EVERYTHING was a let down, the food, it always makes my taste buds happy, but I hate to say that I felt as if I could have stopped at sonic and went to Bricktown and did all the same things that the fair had, except I would have spent a lot less money. So along with the food we did walk through the buildings, but after that, we got bored. Now our feet did really hurt because of work all day, but we wanted more to see, more to do.
So we went to the ride part of the fair, and we did see things we wanted to ride, but thought about how we could spend the money on food instead, so we went back to where all the food was and got snack foods... hehehe we eat too much.
Here's the kicker for me, I'm from Iowa originally. I went to the Iowa state fair most of my life, only missing a few years of going due to lack of money. The Iowa state fair is a place that millions of people visit every summer at the begining of August. If you know me at all you all know that I do not ever want to live in Iowa again and it was a boring place to grow up in, but the Fair made up for the boring summers, it was Amazing. I loved the Iowa State Fair. now people who have never been to the Iowa state fair and only the Ok state fair don't like that I say that, b/c this fair is all they know. Bryan often asks me, what more could a fair have, and then I go on with all the things that I am used to at a state fair
I have been to the OK state fair three times now and have not been impressed at all. no maybe I go at the wrong time of the day and I'm missing something. I was beginning to think that maybe the Iowa state fair was only as great as I had imagined it was UNTIL I started to work at the vet's hospital. My boss, the vet and his wife have been through Iowa many times due to having friends from there, and they have been to the IA state fair, and they said after that they really haven't been back the OK state fair, because it is just not too interesting, it all seems the same each year. They have friends in Canada that are from iowa and make the trip every year to go back to the Iowa fair because they love it, which is when I knew that my fond memoried of the IA state fair. It's not just a whole lot more land, which is true, that makes it better in my opinion, it's the more things they have to do and watch. I love the talent shows and they have them consistently throughout the whole day.
Anyhow I say all this not to say that you all can't like the Oklahoma state fair, b/c maybe it is all you know; maybe it holds some great memoried for you, which all that is great. But I just wanted to put it out there that i left a very sad, disappointed girl after the fair. Except for the corndogs that floated around in my tummy...

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Praise the Lord, Command!

We are creatures of habit.

We've all heard it over and over throughout our lives, and to be frank, I HATE THAT PHRASE!!! Why do I hate it, you ask? Well first of all, because I hate things to be said over and over, it just bugs me. We hear it in sermons. We hear it on the evening news. But the main reason I am really hate hearing it is because IT IS SO TRUE! Every time it's used I am reminded that I have things I need to work on, things to change, and of course habits that I've created for myself that I keep going back to over and over again, as if there is some star wars style force pulling me back. Everyone hates to hear something that completely challenges them. This is something that challenges me.

These habits I speak of are, of course, habits that are not benefiting me at all.

I say all this because I have a habit that I want to break, majorly and not go back to. I am a worrier, if you have known me for longer than a month you know that I worry about things, and usually it's little things, but none the less I worry. When this worry comes upon me it makes my mind crazy, the first few moments and days of a certain worry I can handle it a little, but then my mind starts to think about all the times that I have struggled. Then I start to questions, 'why,' like "why did all that have to happen to me." Then I get sad, and that sadness can stay even after the worry leaves and if I don't control it or do something exciting and happy to make me forget, I will get depressed. And this, as you can imagine, causes me to have a very negative attitude. Sometimes all of this comes on me so fast. All of this causes me to have horrible headaches, and stomach problems for months on end. So basically this affects me in all areas of my life.

So I need to change. This is how: The 'Praise the Lord, Command!' So I originally came up with 'Praise the Lord, Project,' but it's not a project and it sounded a little too much like the movie Julie and Julia. It's something I am commanded to do every moment of my day and have disobeyed for way too long.

I wrote on facebook earlier this evening that we are commanded to praise the Lord and rejoice in him always and now I need to actually put it into action and you all are holding me accountable.

Everyday until the end of this year, December 31st. I am going to write a praise on my facebook wall, and if I want to expand I will expand here on my blog. I am doing it til the end of the year because I want to see how it changes things for me by the end of this year. Also the holiday season is always a hard one for me in one way or the other. This is a change needed and wanted. There are days I may not be able to write on facebook a praise, b/c I won't have a chance to get to the internet, but on those days I will make up for it with more praise the next few days.

So here's to following God's commands truthfully, positively and faithfully!

Monday, August 31, 2009

Scrubs and puppies, what a job...

So me and Bryan bought a paper yesterday to look at the classifieds. I found many ads and emailed many people. Just as I was about to quit looking Bryan saw an advertisement for a veterinarian hospital. It had a phone number to call after 8:00am today. So I saw Bryan off to work and called the number listed for the veterinarian hospital. I was told to come between 9am-11am today, so I printed off my resume, straightened my hair, put some makeup on and off I went to find this place. Once I finally found it I realized it was a very good distance from our home. only took about 10-12 minutes to get there. There were many ladies there applying for the job as well. After writing down all my information i took it back to the receptionist Vivian. now Vivian was such a cute person, she was older, but one of those classy ladies with the cool blue glasses and cute clothes, asn ad I stood there she whispered something to me, but I couldn't hear her, so she had me come to the back, and told everything she didn't want to talk about personal info in front of everyone.

As I walked to the back she said that she was the vet's wife and wanted me to really meet him. So I proceeded on to his office stopping along the way to pet an adorable shih-zu puppy with the name of angel. So cute. I waited in his office with a slight fear that the stuffed ducks on the wall may someone come of the wall and start pecking at my head. Let me tell you there were a lot of ducks on the wall, pegged him for a hunter. Which was a great way to start the conversation, and once he saw I was fron iowa he decided to tell me all about his last vacation to Canada and how he loves the outdoors. Funny a vet who loves to hunt, hehe, makes me laugh.

Anyways we went on to talk about me and reasons I would like to work there and about the pay and schedule. At the end he told me it was a great interview and he would definitely call me tomorrow....BUT I guess he got antsy and liked me just enough to give me a call tonight, as I answered he said hello amanda? I said yes this is she, and he proceeded without a name, to ask, "Do you want a job?" I instantly knew who it was, I was so excited as I remembed my nap time dream this afternoon of puppies. so He told me to come in this Friday at 8:45am. I will work full time and like one hour on some Saturdays and 1hour in the morning and at night on Sunday morning, which I could do before we leave for church. And the great part, I can wear scrubs all day to work. No morw worried about fat days and feeling gross in my clothes. YAY YAY YAY!!!

Did I mention at the end of the job I said YAY when he said he would call and let me know, guess that was ok. I'm a charmer what can I say.

Then on top of the new job, Bryan got a call from the same person that gave him and his parents their dog, about a shih-zu dog that is 6 months old and they want $75 for. I want a dog so much, but the deposit for pets at our apartments is a huge amoung of $400 and we only get half of that back. Plus it would be hard to take the puppy out everytime they have to got pottie. It would be an investment, so we are still deciding. It is a boy and Bryan really wants a girl, so that's another down fall. huh, we shall see what we do about this. I think we are leaning towards waiting, which is alright.

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Faith like a child...

So I had a great day celebrating Bryan's 25th birthday with him. I have this irresistible attraction to birthdays, they make me so happy, especially when I get to be involved in the person's birthday party. So today I woke up happy as a clam. We went out to eat and then went to two movies at Tinseltown.

First movie on the list(full from lunch, a little tired but ready for a good movie):: Julie and Julia-- Now I want to cook better, and blog a whole lot more.

Second movie for the day, (Slightly more tired and ready to eat something):: The Perfect Getaway-- Good movie but came out frustrated, very frustrated and as much as I wish I could say the frustrations came from hating the ending of the movie or the lack of twists after the main twist, but that's not where it came, because the movie was fairly good and I'm glad we saw it.

Where does the frustration come from, you ask?

Answer: PARENTS!!!!!!, well at least the parents at this movie.

I get it that it's hard to find time to go see a good movie when you have children and you need time not just with your children every second of the day, who wouldn't get that?

So of course, so that you can see a good movie, and not have to worry about the children, buy some popcorn, pour on the butter and slap a bag of raisnets in the 6 year old's hands and walk them straight into the Rated R movie and tell them to sit quietly

NO WORRIES RIGHT, the child has their candy and pop and many rows to play hide and seek in so it's time to sit back and watch the movie. But as we sat and watched the blood gush from a ladies hand and the back of a man's scalp be ripped off, all I could think about was the little girl starring at the illuminating screen with her jaw open wide, and eyes big as the hole in the ladies hand that just got shot. Do her parents ever realize what they are doing? Does the child eve realize what she is seeing?

Answer: I don't think they do.

In the bible we are called to come to Christ like little children, pure, curious, without second guessing everything and full of hope and faith... What age can we say now that we want to come to Christ as, when 6 year olds are watching movies full of cussing, nudity, killing, blood, stabbing, and should I go on? No wonder children are beating kids up on the school bus and calling them awful names in only the first grade.

I hear so many arguements on things like this. One would be that if they are hearing and seeing some of the same things at home what's the difference. Maybe there is no difference but does that mean people who work at a theater like this can't stop parent's from taking their children into a movie like this. When does the community at large have a priority to stand up and say no your children cannot come to see that movie. Why can't we try to protect children from a world of hate and promiscuity for at least a little longer than 2 years outta the womb? What's wrong with giving children a little hope in this world when later in life all they will know is lots of hurt, anger, and fear?

I, for one, wish that I could go back and know a world without fear, anger, and hate surrounding me at such a young age, so that when it came at me straight in the face I would not react with a confusion and running shoes, but with a hope for tomorrow.

Yes, I know hope now and a life withour fear everyday, but it took me a while to get there, and I beg parents to REALIZE that protecting your children does not mean you hide everything from them, or teach them that they will never feel hurt. It's about teaching them trust, love and hope no matter what's out there.

So the conclusion: HAVE A DAYCARE AT THE THEATER, I guess. Or, just stop taking children to movies where they can't even spell the body part that just got cut off. There is nothing wrong with instilling a certain hope for good in the world to children! And let's be honest, movies/media have lost that innocense like a child and hope for a better tomorrow.

Why not be the ones to bring it back?

Thursday, August 20, 2009

I love marriage.

So I got married in May, right. And the man I married, Bryan is the most amazing person. He is perfect for me. he pushes me to be a better person, and to get things done even when I feel like giving up. He loves me so much, and to be honest, I have complete trust in him and the fact that he will never leave voluntarily, he's around for good. I'm so blessed to have him in my life.

BUT... be aware people, when you get married things change and they change fast. I have so many extremely supportive friend who loves Bryan and are so happy for both of us. But when you are married, I think that people start thinking you no longer have much time to do anything else except be with your spouse. And yes, Bryan is my favorite person in the world and the person I want to be with the most, but i want to see other people and hang out with them. Now I'm not saying that all my friends have forgotten me, they haven't, but life is different now, things are definitely harder now. I'm learner to live life without a lot of people around me at all times like I had for the last five years at MACU... It's weird not having that and I love my quiet, but I do miss people being there to hang out with or to talk to.

I have listened and taken mental notes from so many speakers on marriage and how to keep it healthy. One big thing that I really want is to have a girl-friend that I can talk with, now that doesn't mean it's someone I can talk bad about Bryan to, no way, but a person whom I can vent with or just hang out with so I have another person who helps me grow as a follower of Christ, and I can help her as well. They always say it's good to have friends outside of just your spouse. I crave that. It's my blog, i'll be honest. I'm ready to move. I will miss Bryan's family especially his mom, who has shown me so much love, and I will miss other people. But I'm ready to be in a new state, with different things to do and makes new friends as a couple with Bryan. Also people who don't know the old me unless I want to let them know that shy girl and all the mistakes I made.

I'm ready for a start in a new place, just Bryan and I and I'm ready to let go of people in my life that I have come to realize that I depended on a whole lot and now that I'm married I dont have them, and that's ok. i've experienced anger and frustrations and sadness about it, but all in all realized that I'm just fine and I will be ok.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

work out plan

So I made a blog, thanks to my friend Nevan telling me to over and over to get one.

So I have some weight loss and what I guess you would call the drive to get healthier. Last week I started writing in my food journal again and today me and my husband have signed up at the Aspen athletic club. Well we have 30 free days there, and will decide at the end of the 30 days if we can afford to have a membership there. I'm hopeful, b/c I think when my back and knee start to hurt, which is usually what causes me to quit most the time, Bryan can push me to keep going. Well I hope he pushes me to keep going. I'm excited to work out, b/c I know it will eventually help me have a lot more energy and bring more positivity into my life which is currently crowded with looking for a job, and trying not to lose faith in the process.