Thursday, September 24, 2009

Hopes went up, and then hopes came down... QUICKLY

I will probably make some people mad by the words that are about to be written. I have a tendency to get my hopes up about lots of things, especially when it's a date with Bryan that consists of going somewhere other than the movies. So last Friday we went to the Oklahoma State fair. How to describe the fair, hmm... searching for words... well sorry but, 'let down' is all I can say. The mayor recently made a plan to spend lots of money to fix up OKC some more including the state fair grounds, and if that means making it not so much of a sad event for me, then I'm all for the money being spent.
NOT EVERYTHING was a let down, the food, it always makes my taste buds happy, but I hate to say that I felt as if I could have stopped at sonic and went to Bricktown and did all the same things that the fair had, except I would have spent a lot less money. So along with the food we did walk through the buildings, but after that, we got bored. Now our feet did really hurt because of work all day, but we wanted more to see, more to do.
So we went to the ride part of the fair, and we did see things we wanted to ride, but thought about how we could spend the money on food instead, so we went back to where all the food was and got snack foods... hehehe we eat too much.
Here's the kicker for me, I'm from Iowa originally. I went to the Iowa state fair most of my life, only missing a few years of going due to lack of money. The Iowa state fair is a place that millions of people visit every summer at the begining of August. If you know me at all you all know that I do not ever want to live in Iowa again and it was a boring place to grow up in, but the Fair made up for the boring summers, it was Amazing. I loved the Iowa State Fair. now people who have never been to the Iowa state fair and only the Ok state fair don't like that I say that, b/c this fair is all they know. Bryan often asks me, what more could a fair have, and then I go on with all the things that I am used to at a state fair
I have been to the OK state fair three times now and have not been impressed at all. no maybe I go at the wrong time of the day and I'm missing something. I was beginning to think that maybe the Iowa state fair was only as great as I had imagined it was UNTIL I started to work at the vet's hospital. My boss, the vet and his wife have been through Iowa many times due to having friends from there, and they have been to the IA state fair, and they said after that they really haven't been back the OK state fair, because it is just not too interesting, it all seems the same each year. They have friends in Canada that are from iowa and make the trip every year to go back to the Iowa fair because they love it, which is when I knew that my fond memoried of the IA state fair. It's not just a whole lot more land, which is true, that makes it better in my opinion, it's the more things they have to do and watch. I love the talent shows and they have them consistently throughout the whole day.
Anyhow I say all this not to say that you all can't like the Oklahoma state fair, b/c maybe it is all you know; maybe it holds some great memoried for you, which all that is great. But I just wanted to put it out there that i left a very sad, disappointed girl after the fair. Except for the corndogs that floated around in my tummy...

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Praise the Lord, Command!

We are creatures of habit.

We've all heard it over and over throughout our lives, and to be frank, I HATE THAT PHRASE!!! Why do I hate it, you ask? Well first of all, because I hate things to be said over and over, it just bugs me. We hear it in sermons. We hear it on the evening news. But the main reason I am really hate hearing it is because IT IS SO TRUE! Every time it's used I am reminded that I have things I need to work on, things to change, and of course habits that I've created for myself that I keep going back to over and over again, as if there is some star wars style force pulling me back. Everyone hates to hear something that completely challenges them. This is something that challenges me.

These habits I speak of are, of course, habits that are not benefiting me at all.

I say all this because I have a habit that I want to break, majorly and not go back to. I am a worrier, if you have known me for longer than a month you know that I worry about things, and usually it's little things, but none the less I worry. When this worry comes upon me it makes my mind crazy, the first few moments and days of a certain worry I can handle it a little, but then my mind starts to think about all the times that I have struggled. Then I start to questions, 'why,' like "why did all that have to happen to me." Then I get sad, and that sadness can stay even after the worry leaves and if I don't control it or do something exciting and happy to make me forget, I will get depressed. And this, as you can imagine, causes me to have a very negative attitude. Sometimes all of this comes on me so fast. All of this causes me to have horrible headaches, and stomach problems for months on end. So basically this affects me in all areas of my life.

So I need to change. This is how: The 'Praise the Lord, Command!' So I originally came up with 'Praise the Lord, Project,' but it's not a project and it sounded a little too much like the movie Julie and Julia. It's something I am commanded to do every moment of my day and have disobeyed for way too long.

I wrote on facebook earlier this evening that we are commanded to praise the Lord and rejoice in him always and now I need to actually put it into action and you all are holding me accountable.

Everyday until the end of this year, December 31st. I am going to write a praise on my facebook wall, and if I want to expand I will expand here on my blog. I am doing it til the end of the year because I want to see how it changes things for me by the end of this year. Also the holiday season is always a hard one for me in one way or the other. This is a change needed and wanted. There are days I may not be able to write on facebook a praise, b/c I won't have a chance to get to the internet, but on those days I will make up for it with more praise the next few days.

So here's to following God's commands truthfully, positively and faithfully!